I have been through a whirlwind of transformation in the past few years. I know many women have. It seems even through these “modern” times, more and more Christian women are choosing to stay at home. Focusing on raising the littles God has blessed them with, and serving those around them.

I went from thinking that my accomplishments equaled my worth. To now, having absolutely every title stripped away from me. Worship leader, no more. Business owner, no longer. Every position I thought I had is gone. And all that remains is simple. I am a daughter of The Most High.

The world has screamed to us, brainwashing us that staying at home and serving those around us is meaningless. That our fulfillment will be in our titles. Our time is more valuable elsewhere.

Today I looked at these two during the afternoon. They both sat at the table. Quietly eating these pastries I had made, while drinking their tea. They looked outside, enjoying the view of the leaves falling onto the ground. And I thought, “What a beautiful childhood.” I made those pastries, I brewed that tea. And now my littles are sitting there and enjoying the fruit of my labor.

Three years ago, I had my son on the left there in that photo above. A few weeks after I gave birth to him, I remember the Holy Spirit saying to me, “I’m going to teach you how to serve your family like Jesus washing the disciples’ feet.” The thought of that was depressing to me. I was a business owner at the time, planning to build a future full of lots of growth professionally. The Lord wanted to wash my families feet? Are you kidding me? I was a boss.

Then I think of today. My three-year-old is calling for me while crying. He pooped himself. Like the runny kind. My favorite. I grab him, place him in the tub. Then I help him get undressed as he’s crying, and I’m turning on the shower to get him all cleaned up. When he’s all clean, I spend another 25 minutes using our carpet cleaner to scrub the carpets. Looking for every dot of runny poop.

It’s in those moments that I’m reminded of what the Holy Spirit told me. I’m washing my family’s feet.

You see, the way the world works makes us think that it’s what people see in public that matters. That we’re doing ministry if we are on a platform of some sort. But that’s not necessarily it. Anyone can stand on a stage and perform. But the Lord looks at the heart.

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because i have refused him. For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

Anyone can have children. But as Christians, we don’t have children for them to grow up, live life, and then end up going to hell.

Listen, ladies, we are on MISSION. Our mission is family first. We have a grave ministry before us. And that includes the very few humans that God has entrusted to our care.

What if instead of thinking about how our children are an inconvenience, we realize that we are literally raising people who are called and chosen for a specific purpose?

Listen, mama, the Bible tells us to train our children in the way they should go. That is a mission. And there is a purpose behind that. I have battled the enemy’s nagging at me for years now. “You’re unimportant.” You have no purpose.” “You’re insignificant.” Why? Because I have no platform for the world? I’m a mama with a purpose. Raising my kids to become the people that God has called them to be. Training them in the character He’s called them to have. Modeling the heart that they are to carry. And praying in the fire that has been promised to them to walk with.

Your children were not given to you by accident. Open your eyes, look around. See what you have in your hands in this season. And ask the Lord, How do you want me to be faithful with this? How do you want me to raise these children You’ve given me? That wisdom, peace, love, and strength can only come from Him.

Seek Him, you’ll find Him. And He’ll fill you with the love that you need overflowing. That way it’ll pour out to those littles you have around you. Leading them into the goodness of God by YOUR walk with God.

With love,

Kristina