For me, the past few years have been a whirlwind. I feel like so much has happened. In many ways, I have seen the faithfulness of God. In other ways, I’ve been left without answers I thought I’d have.

Through the trials that I’ve walked through, thoughts come. Sometimes those thoughts are more of the repetitive type. Feeding lies into the ears, attempting to weigh the heart down. One of the heaviest tactics of the enemy when we are walking through the fire is attacking who we are.

I once was in prayer and singing songs of worship. During this time, the Lord showed me a picture. I was standing on a balcony, and He removed my robe from behind me that was on my shoulders. This was not any ordinary robe. It was a heavy, dark, calloused robe. Underneath that robe, was my glistening white robe. And instantly I understood what it all meant. That dark and heavy robe was all of the titles that I thought I had. “Business owner, ministry leader”, the list can go on. You’d think that because they were all positive titles, the robe would have been gold or purple. But that robe was a dark grey/brown color. And once I saw the white robe I understood, it meant daughter.

Going through all of these trials and walking by faith has not been easy. It hasn’t been simple. It has been an absolute leap of faith with no understanding. But isn’t that what our life is to be?

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; – Proverbs 3:5

Oftentimes, because we are watching arrows come our way, the enemy tempts us to doubt God. He tempts us not only to doubt what God said. But he further tempts us to question if we are really children of God. It’s as if he’s sitting there on the sidelines waiting for us to be battered down by what we’re walking through. Waiting for the opportune time to throw us a curve ball.

I battled for months. Thoughts were flying my way over and over again. The enemy was causing me to doubt if I was even saved. What if I were to stand before God and hear depart from Me, I never knew you? As if I committed the unforgivable sin. Then one day, after sitting with these thoughts and fighting to press through the lies, the Holy Spirit spoke. He said, “let the tormentor pass.” It was as if because I was dwelling on the lies, the tormenting thoughts stayed. But once I received that word, I understood that all I had to do was let him pass. The tormentor came to deceive me, but I was to stand on the word of God.

What did Jesus do when satan came to tempt him? The Bible specifically says that Jesus went to the wilderness to fast to be tempted by the devil. Jesus did not dwell on the deception satan brought. Jesus, spoke the truth. The biblical truth. You see, satan will take partial truths and twist them. He’ll change the narrative of the truth to lie to us. But we have to stand on the word of God. Our salvation, our identity in Jesus is by faith. Not by our works.

If we have sinned in some way, we repent and receive forgiveness. Then we move forward. We do not have to sulk and listen to the whispers of the enemy that says we aren’t God’s children. We let the tormentor pass. If life seems chaotic and everything seems out of control, we thank God that His word always does what it says out to do, and never returns to Him void. We speak the scriptures of what Gods word says about this situation out loud! Say it out loud, until you believe it. No matter how many times it takes.

Then, when the deceiver comes to lie to us, we already know what to do. We speak, meditate, and receive the promises and TRUTH of Gods word.

 Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. – James 4:7

Prayer:

Father, I come to you in the name of Jesus. I thank you Lord for your salvation that you have given me with your blood. I receive your salvation and Lordship over my life. I come against every single lie that the enemy has spoken over me and my life in Jesus name. I declare that your promises are true for me. I receive your truth about who I am in you. I thank you that I am your child, and that I get to walk in Your ways all the days of my life. Holy Spirit I ask you to fill every part of my being. Help me to walk with You day in and day out. Thank you for your freedom. In Jesus name I pray, amen.